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Fifteen.
Mixed.
Capricorn
Christian.
Idealist.
Cassiopeian.
I'm 16 years old and live in good ol' Scunthorpe. I procrastinate alot, read and write when I am in one of those "moods" but mostly I just listen to music and rave my problems away. I have no particular talent, but I enjoy fashion
This is my personal blog, my heart, mind and deepest feelings will be put here. I won't hold back, so if you read something you don't agree with, or think is directed to you...don't assume. As the saying goes"Assume and you make an ass out of you and me"
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I have no hope...
Sunday, 15 November 2009 @ 01:17
I tried to kill myself.
I actually prayed to God to die. I just wanted to feel nothing, to be taken away from this earth and be at peace.
Turmoil. My feelings are in turmoil right now, a part of me still wishes for that unreachable peace, but another thinks of my family and friends. I love them too much.
I know with my friends they would be able to cope, they will soon move on. But not my family and I couldn't ever be at peace knowing I'd left them hurting.
Either way, I lose.
I guess God has a path for me, a destiny for me.
I just hope I will have enough faith and strength in me to continue moving on in this life.
To continue on that path, if not for me, but for my family, God, the ones that love me.
I have sinned and I cannot redeem myself, I just have to move on.
I am not the best of Christians but I try, even in this world full of materialistic wants, I still hold onto that thin strand that holds me to God. I won't let go.